‘Distance I’, the first of a two-part series, is comparing physical distance with emotional distance.
The poem ‘Foreigner’ is about being from a different background and trying to accept it. It’s a journey of being ashamed in public of having a different background because one worries what others think of you. This leads to overcompensation in acting how the new culture acts or wants you to act. This may force you to abandon old values that you actually cared about. The poem is about finding a balance and realizing that it is not a burden, but a blessing in disguise as you’re able to connect with more people because of your broader background and that it’s something you should be proud of. This is something I especially learned and experienced when I did a trip abroad to Amsterdam, a place where, allegedly, around 50% of the inhabitants are immigrants.
The second part of a three-part story of change. ‘Change II’ is about having broken up and doubting whether it’s the right decision. Trying to convince yourself that it is and that you should never go back to what didn’t work. However, this idea is not entirely without doubt.
Forest and plants is a recurring theme in many of my poems. The idea is that everything forms life and that there’s energy in everything. Some things, however, go bad and rotten. Bad relationships for example. ‘Leaves’ is a poem about noticing and trying different things to learn to know yourself and not put yourself in the same situation. Sometimes, leaves can barely hold onto a tree and other times they can survive through a storm.
‘Hiding’ is about our exterior not fitting with our inner-selves. In the past I’ve struggled with being happy and energetic all the time out in public and then being all out worn out. The struggle is to find a balance and communicate with the close ones around you and take the time to manage your mental well-being.
‘The chance’ is about getting over a breakup. Getting over the hump and being ready to be vulnerable again and putting yourself out there.
‘Remember’ is a piece about hanging on to someone that doesn’t care as much about you as you do about them. You force yourself to stay because you believe there’s nothing better out there.
‘Snow’ is about a person that makes it seem as if they’re interested in a romantic relationship, but when it comes to it they bail at the last second.
‘The gray between the black and white’ was a piece I wrote during a time where I had extreme mood swings. I could go from having the best time with my friends to being completely down and depressed in a blink of an eye. For a long time I couldn’t figure out what caused these ‘demons’, as I liked to call them, to come out. After a great amount of self-reflection they don’t come out as often and when they do I’ve become much better at handling it. Accepting that you have issues is important and talking to your friends about it helps as well.